My darling Jasper Bing,

There was a daughter I imagined that I would someday meet.
Her eyes would be a deep dark blue, her hair the color of wheat.

I imagined singing to her while she grew inside my belly.
As her toes poked from within, I’d play ‘This Little Piggy’.

And when she came in to this world, I’d be there for her always.
We’d dance and sing and patty cake every single day.

But God has dreams of his own we never quite imagined.
I’ve put my faith in all his love and the path that he presented.

Those visions that I used to have, I can no longer find.
Silky strands of ebony I now stroke in my mind.

The eyes I see—no longer blue…
Now almond shaped with a rich brown hue.

While she grew in another’s womb—nourished by the mother,
she also grew inside my heart where she will stay forever.

And in my dreams the moment that police found you alone,
I was there to comfort you and bring you to your home.

Today I dream my arms could stretch across the vast blue seas
to reach for you across the world and hold you close to me.

Although our faces do not quite resemble one another,
I know the Father created you so I could be your mother.

And though I've not yet held you or heard your first words spoken,
and though we are still separated by the deep blue ocean;

I'll be right there to get you just as soon as God allows.
But 'til He says the time is right I give to you this vow.

I’ll pray for your protection – to be cradled in angels wings.
‘Til I can hold you in my arms my darling Jasper Bing.

Love, your forever Mom!